I am dependent upon Jesus for EVERYTHING- For some reason I have the tendency to think I have everything together, that I got it covered...I guess it is the type-A personality, or the perfectionist in me. The Lord has continually reminded me throughout life that I am dependent upon Him for all things, and even more so in marriage. I NEED Him to strengthen me every day in order to love Him first, to love my husband more than myself, and to live a life worthy of the Gospel.
The genuineness of "I LOVE YOU"- Those three simple words, so precious, so simple, yet so profound. I am humbled by them, encouraged by them, and in need of hearing and saying them over and over again. We hear those words thrown out all throughout the day, on TV, amongst friends, and often times, there is no genuineness behind the words. Reflecting on the weight of the words, and what I mean when I say those words, makes me cherish the love I have with my husband more and more each and every day.
How selfish I really am- This is one of many areas in my life that have become all the more evident. I always knew I was selfish, but being married, lets you see it in a whole new light. The Lord has been gracious to continue sanctifying me in this area, and I am eager to see how He refines me in the next 6 months or even 6 years. This goes back to point number one, how dependent upon the Lord I am, and in need of His grace and strength each day.
The precious gift of time- Time flies, that's for sure. I remember being little and thinking it took FOREVER for my birthday to come, or for the Saturday that we'd go to Disneyland, or for Christmas. And then, the older I got, the more and more I wanted time to slow down. I found myself blinking months away, and wondering how I ended up graduated from college so quickly. That is just the way time is. In the past 6 months I have realized more than ever how much I cherish the time I have with my husband, every minute matters. I am so thankful for the first six months the Lord has given us and I am eager to see what's next. I pray that I will always value the time I have been given, with my husband, and in life in general, and maximize it for the glory of God and the good of others.
Sharing a Bed is a blessing- Despite the elbowing, the rolling, the stealing of the covers, and the adjustments we have had to get used to sleeping in the same bed, I love falling asleep to and waking up next to my best friend. It truly is such a treasured blessing I don't think will ever get old.
It's a FIGHT not a fairytale- This pretty much sums up everything. The first 6 months of our marriage have been "bliss". When people ask me how I like being married, a huge smile crosses my face and I think about just how wonderful it is. But, despite how amazing it is, I know that it is not a fairytale. God is using our marriage as a tool to refine the both of us, to make us fall more in love with Him, and to picture the Gospel to a fallen world. Being "one" allows us now to fight together, a battle that is not new to either of us. We have to fight for Christ to be our constant focus, we have to fight to be in the Word together daily, we have to fight to spend time in focused prayer together daily, we have to fight to selflessly serve the other, we have to fight to guard our tongue, we have to fight to protect our marriage...all in the strength of the Spirit and all by the grace of the Lord.
So...6 months down, and I couldn't be more thankful for the man God has blessed me with. I love being married, because I am married to Keith. I praise the Lord for all He has done in the last 6 months and cannot wait to see what He has in store next!
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