Waiting

The anticipation is growing with each passing day.  My emotions are constantly changing as I wait for the arrival of our son.  I have no idea what to expect and as much as I have "prepared" I know what I am about to experience is something you can't explain or understand until it happens to you personally.  Every day I wake up wondering if today will be the day that he comes and fall asleep wondering the same thing.  A couple nights this week I found myself so restless I couldn't even sleep...Keith explained it like the night before you go to Disneyland when you were a little kid, PURE EXCITEMENT that makes it nearly impossible to close your eyes.  As much as I want every day to be "the day", I am certain that from before the foundations of time, from before the creation of this world, the sovereign and good God ordained the perfect moment of his birth...in that there is much comfort and confidence knowing His ways are perfect.  I love knowing that He has been knitting Brayden in my womb, fashioning and forming him each and every moment of his short little life.  He has been faithful and will continue to be.

"For it was You who created my inward parts;
You knit me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I will praise You
because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made.
Your works are wonderful,
and I know this very well.
¹⁵ My bones were not hidden from You
when I was made in secret,
when I was formed in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶ Your eyes saw me when I was formless;
all my days were written in Your book and plannedbefore a single one of them began." -Psalm 139:13-16
 So we wait, and we pray and we trust!  After all, he has to come out at some point right :). SO thankful to be walking through this with the one my heart loves.

2013, HE must Increase

I can't believe 2013 is already here.  I guess there is truth to the saying, 'the older you get the quicker time flies'. 2012 was full of great moments, unending blessings, and much sanctification. I am so grateful for the work the Lord did and am eager to see what this new year holds. 

As Keith and I await the arrival of our sweet Brayden, who can come any day now, I have been wondering what God may want to grow me in this year.  I know that there will be much sanctification with a little one, and yet specifically I have no idea with that will entail.  However, as I have thought about what my prayers for this year should be, they all point back to John 3:30, "He must become greater; I must become less". It seems simple enough, and yet I know it has been and will continue to be a lifelong process until I am made whole in heaven.

What this looks like practically changes with each season of life and even with each day. Making Christ great, must be my faithful pursuit.  As a wife, and a soon to be mother, I am called to be faithful, to lay down my desires and my wants so that I might meet my husband's and my son's...why? So that HE, Jesus Christ, might become greater in my life, and I might become less. 

I know that it is only through the enablement of the Spirit through the power of the Gospel that this is even possible, but my prayer is that I might excel in this pursuit, by His grace and for His glory.  May 2013 be a year where HE increases in my life.