Waiting

The anticipation is growing with each passing day.  My emotions are constantly changing as I wait for the arrival of our son.  I have no idea what to expect and as much as I have "prepared" I know what I am about to experience is something you can't explain or understand until it happens to you personally.  Every day I wake up wondering if today will be the day that he comes and fall asleep wondering the same thing.  A couple nights this week I found myself so restless I couldn't even sleep...Keith explained it like the night before you go to Disneyland when you were a little kid, PURE EXCITEMENT that makes it nearly impossible to close your eyes.  As much as I want every day to be "the day", I am certain that from before the foundations of time, from before the creation of this world, the sovereign and good God ordained the perfect moment of his birth...in that there is much comfort and confidence knowing His ways are perfect.  I love knowing that He has been knitting Brayden in my womb, fashioning and forming him each and every moment of his short little life.  He has been faithful and will continue to be.

"For it was You who created my inward parts;
You knit me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I will praise You
because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made.
Your works are wonderful,
and I know this very well.
¹⁵ My bones were not hidden from You
when I was made in secret,
when I was formed in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶ Your eyes saw me when I was formless;
all my days were written in Your book and plannedbefore a single one of them began." -Psalm 139:13-16
 So we wait, and we pray and we trust!  After all, he has to come out at some point right :). SO thankful to be walking through this with the one my heart loves.